Wala pa rin sa mood....

It's long weekend this weekend so i thought that i should as well take my time and slow down a little.... Hindi na kasi ako nakapagtamadtamaran dahil sa sobrang busy nga kaya big chance ko na to ngayon ha-ha....! Everyone's returning back to work on tuesday pa and tomorrow is still another day-off as a part of the long weekend thingy nga.... I think it's also a public holiday in pinas bukas, hindi ko lang maalala kung anong okasyon.... I was also shocked to know from AB yesterday about the passing of another philippine cinema's great, Rudy Fernandez.... Buhay nga talaga ng tao, the difference between a cancer patient and a healthy person daw is just a matter of time, everyone is heading to that same direction....

Hindi ko na kasi masyadong nasusubaybayan ang mga pilikulang pilipino dahil medyo mahirap itong mahagilap dito.... I would really love to sit in front of tv for the whole day one day and watch pinoy programs kung meron lang sana akong source ng mga to dito.... I also got terribly addicted to listening online filipino-fm stations lately, particularly the Kiss FM Lucena, maybe because of the sense of humor ng mga Dj's at ang tunog ng accent nila na talagang pinoy na pinoy, ala Dencio Padilla ang dating at parang nasa pinas lang ako ulit everytime na nakikinig ako, or maybe the 80's music that they often play, which i love to listen....

Since friday i was very busy putting on some colors in my apartment unit.... Sort of making things go against my dull mood this time, para naman maiba ng kunti.... Hindi naman kasi dahil medyo depressed ako ay dapat depressed din ang kulay ng paligid ko, kaya medyo nilagyan ko ng kunting buhay ang paligid at ni-rearrange ang ibang part ng bahay, nilinis ang mga fish tanks at dinagdagan ang mga tropical fish nito.... Kahapon, for the first time in many weeks ay lumabas ako ng balcony at inayos ang mga halaman dun.... There's a bird cage there in a corner that once belongs to my pet cockatiel, "Dexter"....

Sabi ko, siguro it's about time na para lagyan ko ng ibon ulit instead of it just sitting there and catching dust kaya pumunta ako sa pet shop kahapon to buy one but not necessarilly a cockatiel again kasi baka ma-frustrate lang ako kung hindi ito kasing obedient ni Dexter ko nun.... So i've finally made up my mind to get a pair of finches instead, because they are cheaper and easy to maintain birds.... Only eleven dollars each compared to a cockatiel's price that will instantly break my pocket.... And they can also breed in the cage when in pairs, all you need is just a nesting box or grass ball at presto, may baby ibon na sila....

Pero may kunting problema lang, dalawa na lang daw ang finches nila at parehong lalaki pa....! I thought, this is not right, hindi ako against sa gay couples but then they will deprive me the chance of being an uncle to my nephews and nieces (baby finch) in the future....! Nalito tuloy si astig.... Anyways, medyo nagustuhan ko naman ang kulay nila kaya binili ko na rin at nag-promise naman yung store keeper na next week ay may finches ulit sila na darating kaya bili na lang ako ulit ng mga t-birds naman next time, extra gastos nga lang he-he....!

Pagkauwi, nilinis ko ang hawla at nilagyan ng ibons (plural for ibon) at nilagyan ng left-over na bird seeds ni Dexter nun.... And i'm also proud to tell you about my latest genius idea.... Nag-iisip ako nun kung anong nest ang ilalagay ko dahil wala akong mahagilap na kahon.... When a bag of wood chippings na ginagamit kong pang mulch sa mga halaman ang nakatawag ng pansin ko.... Biglang umilaw na naman tuloy tong bumbilya sa utak ni astig....! Naalala nyo ba kung paano ginagawa ang fried chicken....? Nilalagay sa loob ng plastic bag ang pieces ng manok coated with beaten eggs with the flour and spices at kung ano pang sangkap, tapos pinapagpag, niyuyugyog, at inaalog-alog ito para dumikit sa pieces ng manok ang sangkap....?

Yun ang ginawa ko....! Kumuha ako sa cup-board nung take-away container na bilog na ginagamit sa fastfoods, nilagyan ng butas as pinto for the birds to get in it, tinakpan at pinahiran ang buong container ng napakakapal at masmakapal pa sa normal na pag-apply ng craft-glue (elmer's glue) at inilagay ito sa loob ng plastic bag na may wood chips sabay pagpag, apak, tadyak, yugyog, at alog-alog dito at hinayaang matuyo ng few minutes dun pa rin mismo sa loob nung bag and presto ulit, instant birds nest made of wood-chip ball....! Galing ko ano....?!

For a while i was really enjoying doing the cleaning at the balcony and even forgotten about my dull mood kahit sandali.... I sometimes thought of leaving blogging because i can't think of anything to write in here anymore, talagang blanko utak ko ngayon.... Unless i will talk about myself like this again.... Wala talagang pumapasok na ideas sa utak ko para isulat.... Hindi katulad nun na halos bumabad na ako dito kaharap ng pc for days and nights para lang isulat ang lahat ng mga umaapaw na ideas sa isip na gusto kong i-share.... Maybe it's because of my hopelessness, maybe it's because of my frustrations in life, hindi ko alam....

Para akong palubog na bangka minsan, lahat ng mga pabigat ay dapat na itapon over-board just to keep the boat floating as long as possible.... Sa ngayon, palagay ko ay hindi naman pabigat tong blogging sa'kin, kaya lang ay hindi ko lang talaga kayang i-maintain to sa lahat ng oras.... So kahit medyo hindi ako nakakapaglagay ng bagong entries ay nandito pa rin naman akong pabisitabisita sa mga blogs nyo each weekend.... When i'll get through this dullness ay balik gana na naman ako sigurado yan, promise.... Kaya wag lang sanang magtampo kung medyo hindi ako masyadong active dito ngayon.... =D

Kunting laman ng utak....

I don't really have much to talk about today, but since i was not able to put any entries here last weekend i just want to write about things that had happened for the past few days.... I feel a bit down today, thinking about a lot of things.... So down that i've unconsciously devoured and finished two large chillis that was part of my "Sinigang" for lunch today, which i normally never does because i hate hot foods....! I think the pungency of it's taste was just mixing well with my mood today that's why....

Well, same as usual i was very busy with works part at home and at the office.... since last tuesday, i've started going to work as early as 5:45 AM just to cope up with the busy schedules of the weeks to come.... Nandun na yung hirap ng paggising sa umaga, winter pa naman ngayon at ang sarap talagang matulog.... By the time i've reached work it was still very dark and there's only two of us there, my fellow pinoy workmate na palagi kong kakuwentuhan at ka-kapehan when it comes to business plans back in pinas.... Since last year kasi, AB and i were already busy investing on something back in pinas.... Naisip ko kasi na ano naman ang gagawin namin dito in the future pagtumanda kami kaya it's better to have something back home na matatawag din naming amin as long as there's no war or anything ay okay dun di ba....?

Lately we've given a reservation money for a small spot in a proposed subdivision area close to a public high school in Iloilo that one day we're planning to turn into a two-floor boarding house for students.... The money that then will go to the mortgages of this new project will come from an empty space that we bought just last year which we are going to put for rental on the next few weeks from now, and at the same time we'are saving for the construction of this new project.... All these thoughts, and plans are just going through my brain like a very long noisy train, day in and day out....

I really wish to go back home as fast as i could.... Gustong makasama ang mga mahal sa buhay at nandyan na rin ang gusto kong makita at alagaan ang parents ko, specially my father sa pagtanda nila, but everything there involves money at hindi natin pwedeng ipagkaila yan.... Kailangan ko lang talaga ay one-third ng earnings ko dito per month na income dun at okay na akong umuwi.... That's why, kapag successful tong boarding house business na'to ay willing talaga akong umuwi to try it out for a year to see how things go....

It's like a race against time talaga.... Kung pwede lang sanang i-frozen ang age ng tao ay ginawa ko na sana.... Some people might think that in order to start something, you'll need the exact amount needed to start those things.... But my idea is different, i have to step down to a certain level where i'll be known as the king....!

Example:

**Di ba, pagnasa section one ka raw sa school, speed class yun, lahat dapat ay matatalino at kailangan kang mag-compete all the time para pantayan ang galing ng lahat ng kaklase mo....

**Pagnasa section two ka naman, lahat ay average lang naman ang talino, pero kailangan mo pa ring mag-exert ng extra'ng efforts para i-maintain ang average na yun....

**Pero sa oras na bumaba ka na ng section three, everything will change.... As a survivor of section one and two, dun kahit pumikit ka pa ng mga mata mo, makinig lang mabuti at tumaas ka lang ng kamay mo palagi ay siguradong nasa top one ka at the end of the school year di ba....? Yun ang ginawa namin, making use of the big difference in currency here and back home.... But we need to start from little beginnings of course, before we hit the much higher marks.... Ika nga, hindi raw nabubuo ang piso kung walang isang sentimo.... Kaya itago ang napulot mong isang sentimo at balang araw ito ay magiging piso.... =D

I remember Leonardo da Vinci had once said, that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them, they went out and happened to things....! So we did....! I believe that all these things that we've started will surely payback well in the long run....

Don't have much to talk about daw o he-he....! At yan po ang madugong pangyayari sa linggong ito.... Sana nagustuhan nyo at hindi kayo nahawa sa mga stress ko.... Gusto ko lang naman pong ibahagi ang kunting laman nitong utak ko sa inyo.... Ingatz sa lahat.... Have a great weekend and week ahead....! =D

Tagged by Marie....

Describing Myself today....

Marie tagged me with this meme.... Thanks Marie....! I didn't have the time to post any entries here last weekend because i was really busy doing some important things that i need to finish before yesterday, monday.... Currently my schedules are as unpredictable as lightning strikes and my mood at the moment is like a duck swimming in the water.... Out on the surface, i'm calm and graceful, but down below, my feet are paddling like crazy....! Anyways, here's Marie's tag.... =D

Rules:
1. List 6 things that describe yourself today.
2. Add your blog to the list. Feel free to add all your other blogs.
3. Tag other online friends you know.

Today, I am:

~ QUIET – I don't know but i just felt like not saying anything at all today at work.... Kaya pangitingiti lang at panay pakinig lang sa mga k'wentuhan ng mga kaibigan....

~ THINKING – I've made a lot of thinking this weeks.... I've made a lot of plans which sometimes makes me realised na parang napakaimposibling palang abutin.... At the moment AB and i have another project that i'm not sure yet if it is going to turn out well or not....

~ STRESSED – As always naman, kaya nga nagkasakit last time because of that.... I guess this will always be my little trademark.... I could never be as complete as i am now without this stress in my system ha-ha....! I don't know, i just feel more alive when i'm out there figuring things out or trying to fix some problems....! It's always been the icing on the cake, always hanging with me all the time, ayaw humiwalay....!

~ PLANNING – I sometimes thought that, hey i'm not getting any younger here, so i better do something with my life fast.... Set about to chase time, and that's when stress starts to hit me again ha-ha....!
~ THANKFUL – There are times when i'm trying to look back to where i came from and then start asking myself, "how did i get this far?", and though i'm thousand miles away from people that i love, i always receive a lot of motivations from some unknown incredible sources to keep me going a bit more....! My greatest wish....? To go back home for good and start something promising....
~ SLEEPY – After all the thinking, after all the stress, and planning, i thought it would be best to end the day with a nice warm shower, and snuggle in my blanket.... Winter yata ngayon kaya ang sarap matulog woooohoooo....! =D

Links: Poolah, Full Time Dreamer, Pepe

I would like to tag everyone who will leave their comments in this entry, so it's up to you if you like to post this meme in your blogs guys....! =D

Naked punishment....

I don't really have anything in my mind to write about today so i'm just dropping by to check my emails and answer some comments left by friends and visitors here, but as i was browsing through the internet a while ago, i came across an article about a strange kind of punishment that was being practiced in a daycare center in korea.... I find it so out of this century and totally unfit into our present time.... Pag-usapan po natin to....

The articled says, "Koreabeat reported a daycare center in Itaewon used some highly questionable punishments — locking its kids (a little girl) outside in the cold, naked. a foreign teacher passing by saw the abuse and took photos. This is currently one of the most-viewed stories on Naver.There is shock over the punishment a daycare center in Seoul doled out to one child — she was forced to take off her clothes and be locked outside....

As a result of photos sent, it has been confirmed that the “Yongsan-gu daycare center" in Itaewon made the child, who appears to be about five years old, remove her clothes before putting her outside and shutting the door, leaving her there. It is particularly shocking that the daycare center in question, run for low-income families by the local Yongsan-gu government, left the child alone outside on the second floor fire escape where there was a danger of him falling. There were two photos, which show a small girl standing on the second floor fire escape almost naked, huddling in the extreme cold."

This is a terrible experience specially for a child as young as five years old to be out in the cold....! They're not made of steel....! Hindi man lang nila naisip na pwedeng magkapulmonya ang mga bata dun....! Sadly the responses from the childrens parents to this issue was also quite unbelievable.... One mother even said, "We don’t want the teacher to be punished.... We just want to love one another, forget about this incident and move on." How can you love one another when they are out there killing your child....! WHAT THE....?! If this is some sort of a "reverse psychology" kind of a dialogue by that mother to persuades those teachers to do the opposite, i'm sorry to say that it is totally ridiculous and an unexpected reaction from any responsible parents....

If i were the father of that little girls or anyone of those punished children, ewan ko lang kung anong gawin ko sa teacher na yan....! I would've probably cut that teacher in pieces and put her in my stir-fry already, together with the broccoli, carrots, and snow peas....! O di kaya paghubarin ko rin sya at ilagay sa labas in the middle of winter, para malaman nya rin kung ano ang feeling nun....! =D

In the end they've added that the city officials have requested the Ministry of Gender Equality and Family to revoke the teaching license of Mrs. Park, the owner of the daycare center, as well as the contract for the center’s management.... Anyways, the damage has been done and that i guess will be very difficult to erase from a young child's mind....! If you'are a parent, i wonder how will you react to something like this happening to anyone of your children....?

Ginabing update....

Hallo bloggerz....! As usual, bisita pa rin ako pansamantala ng sarili kong blog ha-ha....! Malapit na kasing matapos ang book na ginagawa ko kaya medyo wala akong karapatang gumawa ng kahit ano ngayon maliban sa umupo at mag-drawing in front of my pc....! Wala akong karapatang magkasakit, matulog, magutom, maglakwacha, mag-toilet, manood ng tv etc....etc.... =D

At bago kayo magtaka at magtanong kung ano na naman kaya yang inilagay ko na drawing dyan sa gilid na mukhang napaka-violent naman nyan, yan po ang isa sa mga last illustrations dun sa librong ini-illustrate ko ngayon.... Hindi nyo lang pwedeng i-enlarge yan kasi tinanggalan ko ng enlargement function pero clear pa rin po naman sya di ba....? I just hope that the writer of the book will not get angry with me showing another one of the drawings here he-he....! As usual ay naka-watermark naman yan for its protection....

Anyways, yesterday i went to a job-expo at Darling Harbour.... Nagbakasakaling makahanap ng panibagong magandang trabaho dun.... Nandun kasi lahat ng mga work opportunities, agencies, and job opening lahat naka-display sa expo.... I'm just not sure if i'm really ready to leave my present job now, kaya lang masyado na akong na-stress dito.... Hindi dahil sa trabaho kundi dahil sa ilang mga workmates ko na ubod ng bait....

But unluckily, mostly dun sa mga magagandang job offers ay nasa malayong lugar.... Few are in other states pa kaya medyo nag-isip tuloy akong lalo mula kagabi.... Actually it's not the distance that bothers me most kundi yung feeling of belonging ba....? Nasanay na kasi ako dito sa sydney at nandito lahat ng mga relatives and friends ko kaya parang ang hirap mag-let go.... May mga kaibigan akong nag-fill up ng application forms pero sabi ko pass muna ako dyan....

Madami kasing dapat i-consider kung lilipat ako ng state halimbawa.... Una na dyan, kailangan kong maghanap ng bagong matitirahan.... Ang hirap pa namang maghanap ng murang rent ngayon.... Ewan ko ba kung bakit napakamahal ng cost of living dito sa australia kaya ang hirap din tuloy mag-ipon ng pang holiday back to pinas....! Pangalawa, kailangan ko rin palang bumili ng panibagong mga gamit sa bahay if ever na hindi ko pwedeng i-travel ng libo-libong kilometro tong mga lumang gamit ko at baka mas lalong gagastos lang ako, maliban na lang dun sa ilang maliliit at magagaan gaya ng mga damit ko.... Hmmmm.... Mahirap pala....! Pangatlo, wala rin pala akong mga relative and friends dun.... Kanino pa ako mangungutang ngayon....! =D

So i've decided na dito muna ako sa sydney, pakikiramdaman ko muna ang present job ko if ever na maging worse sya, saka ako magdi-decide later on kung ano nga ba ang dapat kong gawin.... The workplace only have to get rid of few kontrabida lang naman and things will get back to normal again.... Sana nakikinig si lord sa'kin ngayon he-he....! Ang sama ko ano....?! Anyways, have a great week ahead everyone....! I'll visit your blogs na lang within this week, promise yan.... Meanwhile, tulog muna ako okay....? =D

Tagged by Redlan....

This tag is from Redlan, i was so busy lately that i didn't noticed this from his previous post kaya ngayon ko lang nailagay dito.... Salamat sa pag-tag Red, this is in a good timing, wala pa kasi akong maisipang mga topics to put in here dahil busy masyado ang utak ko lately.... Anyways, here it goes....

The RULE: Post 10 things that recently made you happy, then tag ten other people and spread the LOVE!

10. I'm happy to have received this tag from Redlan, because i think i've already run out of ideas to post in here lately ha-ha....! =D

9. I'm happy that i have another weekend off today....

8. I'm happy that my health scare last week wasn't really that serious....

7. I'm happy to receive my first pay for that book that i'm doing now....

6. I'm happy that i was offered a book-illustrator job online....

5. I'm happy that finally i am starting to find a little time to post some entries here in my blog....

4. I'm happy for a long weekend, just stay at home and forget about all the stressing nature of my job....

3. I'm happy and thankful for all the blessings in my life both great and small....

2. I'm happy that eventhough i have a lot of problems and trials in my life, family are always there to give me support and patience....

1. I'm happy that at last we're slowly going back to normal now financially, and my over-time is back....

I'd like to share this post to everyone.... Still don't have time to go around much but just have a go with it, share to us your happiness, and have a happy week ahead all.... =D

The great firewall of china....

I didn't go to work today because we were adviced yesterday by our supervisor to take a weekend off dahil wala daw masyadong orders kaya pahinga muna kami this saturday, next weekend na lang ang OT.... Okay lang kasi pagod naman talaga ako at kahapon lang ay wish kong sana wala ngang over-time ngayon para makapagpahinga naman ng kunti.... Anyways, i was watching Foreign Correspondent on tv today and there was this topic that had caught my attention.... It was about the danger of being a blogger in china....

What they've said on tv was funny because i think it's very rare for somebody to get a knock on their door as a result of something that they've wrote in their websites or their blogs.... Talagang bihira lang, you can count those cases on a couple of hands practically....

We know that there certainly is survailances, and there certainly are internet police.... There are people who's job is to works on a public security apparatus to track-down speech on the internet.... When the internet first started, everyone said that it's beauty was that nobody controls it and that's what most people still believe now.... But in china, the government has proven that it can control the internet....! It blocks sites that it doesn't like, it prevents discussions on certain subjects, it can fine and even chase, arrest, and jail people for stepping out of the line....

The companies which host chinese blogs are held responsible for their contents, so if a "taboo" subject is mentioned and we don't know what level of written ideas are already considered as "taboo" over there, but the hosting company will often send a polite massage suggesting that by changing their words, the blogger can have their article posted in the internet.... What the....! Ganyan na ba ka takot ang gobyerno nila sa mga write-ups ngayon....?! Quite opposite to how the whole world saw them as one of the biggest producers of electronic communication devices na simbolo pa naman sana ng freedom of speech di ba....? Very ironic ano po....?

At least most of us bloggers are still lucky to belong to a country where freedom of speech and print medias are still safe and widely practiced.... Buti na lang wala tayo sa china at ang pinaka-suspense na sigurong katok sa pintuan na matatanggap natin ay packages ng mga goodies na pinamili natin online o di kaya bills ng internet connections....!

Nakakalungkot lang kasing isipin na para silang namumuhay na bilanggo ng sarili nilang bansa kung saan ang kanilang sariling mga opinyon ay wala na rin halos bisa.... And as bloggers with all the freedom in this world to write just about anything ay alam natin kung gaano kahirap ang ganung sitwasyon.... Ano pa kayang sentensya ang maaari nilang ipataw kung mapuntahan lang nila at mabasa ang iba sa mga napuntahan kong blogsites na masyado na talagang rude at below the belt ang mga banat at mga ibinabatong topics....! Bitay sigurado o di kaya minced meat he-he....!

So if i were blogging in china today, ay hindi pala ako dapat nagsulat ng topic na to ngayon dahil any moment from now ay may mga katok akong maririnig mula sa aking pintuan para arestuhin at ikulong ako for crossing the line hmmmm....! TOk- tok-TOK....! Huh, ano yun....?! Tatot ato he-he....! =D